I love my job. I never felt that I would be in a situation when work is overwhelming.
I have worked for the same company for 11 years. I feel lucky to get to work with some wonderful people at a great place. I get up everyday and look forward to going to work.
But, this year, I am tired. Really tired. I feel as though I could sleep for 10 years and only then would I feel rested.
I have been working long hours and when I get home I am tired, cranky and miserable.
I lose patience with my boys and for the first time in my life I have trouble falling asleep.
I feel guilty for not being with my family enough, and I have been fighting with my husband about everything.
This is definitely not what I wanted from my life when my husband and I decided my career would take priority and he would stay home with our boys.
So, I have been debating and thinking and planning.
Could I reduce my workload at my job? What would that mean? Would it limit options for a promotion later? What will my family do without that income?
Last Sunday I received devastating news. Two people that I work with have been diagnosed with cancer. Both of them are in their 40s – one has young children.
With a family history of breast cancer I fear this could be my reality.
For that reason and many others I am wondering if working so hard and for so many hours is worth it.
Now I must decide what to do.